...if it's low, that is. Low self esteem blows. Avoid it like the plague. Only until recently have I really come out of a wicked slump of thinking I'm dirt. I didn't think I was the only one my guy my girlfriend had feelings for, that I was weak, and as Jeffrey Dean put it, inadequate. I worried about everything WAY too much. I thought it was going to be the end of a lot of relationships, because I didn't trust people if they complimented me, I thought they were just being nice (which leads t...

Man I hate mood swings. Even when they're good. (This article is really going to be just a bunch of ramblings as I think of them, neatly grouped into paragraphs.) Right now I'm just ordinary, nothing special. The past week or so I've been constantly thinking about my girlfriend. I've been able to see her once since school's been out and it's driving me nuts. It must seem sort of funny how pathetic I am, but I'm crazy about her. I think she's getting fed up with me telling her how much I wo...

Yeeaahhh, I'm pretty sure I'm not. There are WAY to many things that say I'm not, I'm just secure damn it! I've worn a bright colored, striped polo shirt, a pink bracelet (for breast cancer, mind you), and have a severe head of hair. I don't think I'm gay, but everyone else seems to think so. I'm a toucher when I'm in the mood, and I joke around about gay stuff and typically homoerotic kind of things. Nothing serious, I'm just secure. I always say "If someone saw me and didn't know me, the...

I sit here in front of the screen, My eyes don't even focus I'm numbed from thought Political broadsides I don't know what I did today What did I eat for lunch... Oh it was that greasy burger thing. I surely couldn't tell you What I did last night What I did in math today Or what I said to Samantha That sounds bad, let me take it back I really enjoy listening to her talk, when she does She's so quiet. She's got the job of keeping me sane Through basketball, and less importa...

(Disclaimer: Yes, I'm only 16. If that deters you from reading anything I say about relationships, so be it.) Now I've never been one to be clichéd. I've always wanted to think differently and not do what everyone else does, as far as relationships go. If I do say something jaded, I try to say it with as much meaning and emphasis as I can, to let the other person know that I mean more than it may sound. Is that even possible anymore, to go without saying a jaded or overused phrase for a...

Some of my JU buddies on here might know, but I'm freshly single after a year and ten days. I'll give you a somewhat detailed rundown for anyone that's interested: Apparently, things were going downhill in our relationship, but I didn't notice anything. Anyway, two days before school, she calls me at about 9.45 and tells me, crying, that we'd be better as friends. Since this was a pretty big moment, I remembered a lot of what she said, stuff about "things getting too serious", "wanting to ...

(Note: not the same Samantha that has an account on JU in the AC Guild) You're so different from the last, You come to me; I went to her, She wanted sex, and I wanted To give it to her But I love you Samantha, for other reasons. You're so cute, there's nothing else to call it Innocent like a child, sensible as a woman I haven't had this much fun for years, since I was young I had fun before, but for other reasons. Everyone asks "You tapped that shit yet?" "When ya gonna fu...

Granted, I was tired when this came to me, but the similarities were eerie, and wouldn't you know it, I hate my ex-girlfriend too. (There are some parts that don't parallel each other, but work with me) So I start going out with my girlfriend, and I think she's the best thing since sliced bread. President Bush, well my parents sure weren't thrilled with him so that rubbed off on me, but he hadn't done anything terrible...yet. Slowly, I notice some blemishes on her previously spotless p...